I was Messed up Way before I was Married

Yep… you heard me right.  I thought I had it all together when I said “I Do”.  I thought I was the best thing that could have walked into his life.  Stroking my own ego like, yep, he caught a good one.

I thought I was whole, happy, and a perfect for the part.

But then shortly after “I Do” things begin to change.  I thought it was him, because surely it couldn’t be me.  I realized that I didn’t have a manual on how to “play” wife.  So I put on this perfect wife facade and for the life of me I couldn’t figure out why he wasn’t buying it.

Wait a minute… he wasn’t buying it… now what?

What do you do when he’s no longer buying it? When you can no longer pretend? When he sees right through your false mask of perfection.

What do you do when you realize… whoa… I was Messed up Way before I was Married?

Talk to me.

4 Replies to “I was Messed up Way before I was Married”

  1. This is awesome and brave! am still awe of you and your courage to step out and create a lane just for you…just for us! I have always felt this way, as a matter of fact I have written about it myself but could never quite articulate it in a way in which I described it as wearing a mask! Shoot, you called it what it was! Great job!

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